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moving slowly

2023-07-05

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Things are moving, slowing. It blows my mind how quickly it felt like I had settled back into melbourne, yet how slowly I actually have. I don't feel like I've quite arrived, as if I'm arriving home a new everyday - flustered with things to unpack.

It's been a few days away from this journal. I remember what I wrote back on the 18th of May

[this journal is] a tool for thinking better and reflecting more clearly on my life.

It helps to capture thoughts and feelings. It's good to treat them seriously, and also to have a place to release them.

feelings

Feeling quite resentful this morning and last night, not sure why. Thinking of people in my life who, though I care for them, I also find them difficult and have stubborn bad memories of their company. These feelings come up occasionally, I think by and large due to tiredness. When my sleep is short, my brain begins to falter. I think these feelings come from somewhere else too... somewhere I'm not as sure about. I can see the ships arriving, but I don't know where they've come from.

Feeling excited to do stuff at work.

thoughts

I've been taking the tram a bit to get to work, and enjoying it. This morning on the way to (or from) I thought it would be interesting to do a kind of project table clearing. No more new projects, and then go through what I've got going on at the momement and either cut them down or finish them. Exercise extreme cropping to make them achievable, lop off limbs. A pipe dream? or something inspired?

inspired

Just before I wrote this today I read this lecture by Meg Miller: On editing (and writing)

The last section, On Writing, is really good. I've struggled to take a small enough quote out of it, but here's one as good as any:

Truthful writing is more interesting to read — the descriptions are richer, the writing more specific. But I also think it’s important because writing is often best when it describes the Universal through the Particular, and to do that you have to be aware of your particular “truth,” or your perspective: The experiences, the references, the preferences, the worldviews, etc. that you bring with you when you put down something on the page.

It's directly inspired me to make an effort to be truthful now - in my journal entry.

what else

I found this artist, and he's got a lovely website: hughhayden.com.

One line of css. Breathtaking restraint.

For some reason I saw (or thought of) Laurel Schwulst's ultralight channel again today, based off an essay I quoted last month. Here's an even more brief quote:

To start from nothing and make almost nothing. The dream of a perfect content management system...

thinking about return.horse

the "I have got to get normaler meme" , which is an accurate medical line drawing of a head with the brain edited out in white scrawl and black text in it's place saying "I have got to get normaler", I've replace it with some red text to say "I have got to make cowboy comics"

listening to

Royal Otis - Sofa King

questions