error loves and nourishes thy soul
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I'm back in Australia now. I fell off completely on continuing my journal, but I'm here now climbing back on the horse.
I'm reframing it in my mind, something I need to constantly practice doing for all kinds of tasks: This journal isn't a challenge to be surmounted, it's a tool for thinking better and reflecting more clearly on my life.
I wont be backdating my travel log today.
The last few days have been a blur of travel and arrival
my therapist told me about someone she knows who believes that our spirits can only travel as fast as a horse can run. i use this as a metric when I am busy and running around out in the world. sometimes i need to sit for a while to let my soul catch up. - taylor ☧ on Are.na, in their channel "being // slow"
I'm staying aware of both the immediate displacement from my 17.5 hour international flight, and the last 3 months of displacement.
unpacking
I've got so much stuff, what a nightmare. It hurts to throw things away. I need to do something though, I can't keep all this stuff. I saw some cool woven mats made with old tshirts in brazil (googled them, they're called rag rugs), I'd love to try making some. I've gained a lot of weight traveling too, I'm worried I won't fit my clothes.
clothes
I want to buy some new clothes before I start work, I think either today or sunday are my last opportunities. More things to throw away later 🥲.
anything else?
Thinking about reflecting on my trip, the good and the bad. How to reflect? I get the question sometimes, "was it worth it?"
- Be still. Thou foolish thing, thou canst not wake,
- Nor thy tears wedge thy soldered lids apart,
- But patter in the darkness of thy heart.
- Thy brain is plagued. Thou art a frighted owl
- Blind with the light of life thou ’ldst not forsake,
- And Error loves and nourishes thy soul.
from Be Still. The Hanging Gardens were a Dream by Trumbell Stickney
listening to
questions
- How can I break down the admin ahead of me into manageable tasks? (As opposed to conceptual "get ready for x" questions)
- How can I keep the self confidence I gained through travel, and maintain it in the face of what would have once been devastating weight gain? (6 kilos, not that much, but I have historically had very frail self esteem and body image)