a wishing well

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It's been a wild month, and honestly I don't know if I'll get round to recounting it. Right now I just want one thing - to write down all the ideas I had over the last few days for things to do:

• Thermos holder - make a bottle/thermos holder out of paracord
  • attach it to my crossbody bag
• Brownied Walnuts - Like a Walnut brownie, but more walnuts
• Sillage - Recreate what I had with notion as a 'homepage'. It was called Sillage and I would post quotes and photos. Like a little white board for my computer. I could have it public somehow.
• Conjugação - Finish my conjugation tool as an app
• Goodye github - Move my website off github
• jj - Rewrite bloug (the program I wrote to generate this blog) in bash using cmark for markdown compilation.
• Bloom - Finish my plants project
• Read The Structure and Interpretation of Computer Programs (I set the body max-width to 500px and the font size to 125%)
• Dronin - Modify Ronin to load images from file, to persist over refresh, idk, make it a little more usable for me. I love using it to resize things, but still some pieces are still clumsy.
• I'd like to have a go doing thorough drafts and plans for projects, without actuall doing them.

what else

I want to focus on reducing my stress as much as possible. I'm fairly certain it's causing my heartburn. I stress a lot, without wanting to, over very small things. Even if logically I know it's nothing I feel my body go into stress. I don't really know how to address this, but I'll figure something out.

I bought a practice pad so I can practice drum rudiments.

I've had tremendous trouble focusing lately - not an unfamiliar tune.

Would be good to develop a structured habit of practice. Something with a timeframe, and some direction. This goes for all my pursuits: drums, spanish, portuguese, coding, comics. When I'm reading I'd like to try to summarise each chapter, as a way of better understanding what I've read. Will I actually do this? Who knows.

It's okay to just say stuff, throw it out there. This journal can be a wishing well.

quotes

From the notion screenshot.

"When people say, ‘I’m the kind of person who,’ my heart always sinks. These are formulas, we’ve all got about ten formulas about who we are, what we like, the kind of people we like, all that stuff. The disparity between these phrases and how one experiences oneself minute by minute is ludicrous.” - Adam Phillips, Paris Review

“To learn which questions are unanswerable, and not to answer them: this skill is most needful in times of stress and darkness.” ― Ursula K. Le Guin, The Left Hand of Darkness

And I find art is something that gives you something that you need for your life. Just as religion is something that you need even if you constantly find it denied today. - Anni Albers

listening to

I've been obsessed with this bossa nova remix of Rosalia's "Como Un G" Rosalia - Como Un G (Bossa Nova Version)

Questions

• Who said you have to do any of this?
• What is the impetus, and could it be less stressful?