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loose and blurry fables

2023-10-20

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It's been a while, again. I had a large weekend, and woke up incredibly tired. It's 10min to 10 now and I'm already in bed. Finally putting sleep first. The rationale is (and I've thought this for a while) if I can nail the sleep then the rest will follow. I have a lot I want to do, I'm hoping the sleep will help me focus and get onto it. Zine fest is coming up - I will probably be going up to the limit. I wanted to make 2 zines, I may not get there though. It's always harder than I expect. I did some planning on friday, not much though. My friend came round and did his own prep - he looked at my planning drawings and I could tell he wasn't impressed. It's okay, gotta do it anyway.

Micheal Deforge.

back again

I started this entry and then, I think, fell asleep? No idea what I was going to say about Mike, other than he's a huge influence and inspiration.

Well I'm back now and I'm in an airport - no better place to hook into the journal. I've felt remarkably clear and focussed this week - I think it's due to sleeping better, but I haven't been keeping proper data so it's all conjecture for now. That would be a nice project (as I'm sure I've said many times before) - keeping some kind of tabs on what I'm doing at any moment, all the time. Every 10 min maybe? I could call it an art project. It would need some decisions made before hand:

enough of that

I read an article recently: Systems design explains the world: volume 1. It's not amazing, and I don't remember how I got onto it, but it's worth raising the topic of "systems design" again and thinking about what system metaphors I currently operate on. And then, critique them. My room might be a good place to start.

I tried to do a diagram about it, but I realised it needs more thinking than I care to give it, and also, maybe my room isn't a good place to start. I guess the real concern isn't "design systems" but metaphors in general. I can't hold my actual room in my head to make decisions or understand it (map vs territory). I carry an abstraction that summarises and tells a story about my room, so I can use it. But how far off reality is this abstraction? And in what ways?

I keep all my clothes in the wardrobe. I'm always sliding the door open, biffing things into poorly suited shelfs and hanging shirts on coat hangers. I have a low shelf across far wall, accessible and on full display, full of books. I don't use these books, I never get them out. They're the most accesible things in the room, and the least accessed. Why are the clothes hidden in the wardrobe? It's what a wardrobe is for - and there's a story I've been telling myself since I moved in.

I think there's stories I tell myself about work a lot. I don't know much about how businesses work, so I gave these loose and blurry fables that are just enough to let me do my job. They are loosing their usefulness, and it's becoming time that I replace them with something more robust. I've been reading about project management.

I've had a busy week

I've done 2 classes now for early morning workouts, and I've been in the office 3 days. Last night I caught up with some friends of a friend for a drink, then carried on to a gig to see my friend S off. He's done 4 months in Melbourne and he's sick of it. He's heading to Wellington. It was awesome to see some live music. I have so far to go with drum practice. They made fun of one of the drummers for the sound of his snare - I hadn't even thought of the snare. People are living lives entirely differently from mine.

that's it

I didn't get much sleep last night and I am beyond exhausted. I'm done writing.

I've been reading some Louise Gluck

Telemachus' Detachment

Louise Gluck

  1. When I was a child looking
  2. at my parents' lives, you know
  3. what I thought? I thought
  4. heartbreaking. Now I think
  5. heartbreaking, but also
  6. insane. Also
  7. very funny.

listening to

Blood In The Snow - Totally Enormous Extinct Dinosaurs

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