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2023-02-03

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I'm not writing this in the morning, but it is a beginning of sorts. I'm 32,999 feet above the pacific ocean, on my way to San Francisco. After San Fran I'll be flying to Houston, then to Buenos Aires. I have 9 hours left of this flight, and another day of travel.

In the lead up to leaving I felt like I was falling apart completely. I couldn't focus, I was up late at night and up late in the morning. I would procrastinate often by lying down on my bed and looking at the cieling. I did more work on the day before I left than the two weeks preceding.

Speaking of work: I received a call on Thursday offering me a position, and I accepted the offer. In a few hours my whole way of thinking about this trip changed. It's a lot more of a romp now, a real chance to cut loose and celebrate the last few months of my time off work before I plunge back into the professional pool.

I've learnt a lot in this time off. I think despite myself I'll aim for a little more professionalism in my job moving forwards. Easy to say that now, but I hope it sticks. Even though it's a pain in the ass, it helps so much when I'm trying to move forwards and as I've long believed, for better or for worse, the professional world has made some huge strides in making people effective in the work they put their hands to. Guess what I've been struggling with in my time off?

I feel weird about taking such a corporate job. A job is a job, at least for now. Not sure how to resolve this feeling, but I want to write it down.

I can't lose sight of my long term goals. The way we do work is a drain on the human soul and intellect. We have so much potential for change and success as a species, and the way we funnel our energy into consumption based profit is killing us and our environment. I do not know how to escape it, I hope it's not impossible, and hopefully we can make it easier for those ahead.

I can feel my head clearing out now that I'm doing the travelling I've been planning for so long, and also now that I've got a job. I'm looking forward to getting back to all the projects I put down earlier in the year.

I might come back to this later when I get the song link but there's no guarantees, so I'll pretend this is the end of the entry.

bonus, I came back

I've watched a couple of movies on the plane, and spent the time in-between browsing Monocle mag and trying to sleep. I never achieved any real sleep, but I got some reasonable shut eye. I half dreamed ideas about what I could do to prepare for my new role - wild modifications to country road's website to show off my DOM manipulation flair.

Monocle magazine doesn't read as well as it used to. Maybe I have more taste now, or maybe the writing is worse. I've only read a couple of small articles, maybe the longer form ones will impress.

I also went through and edited this entry slightly, something I've been meaning to make a regular part of this practice.

listening to

LLYLM by Rosalia

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