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Not too worried

2023-01-30

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I don't have much to say, I'm having a good day and getting ready to have a wee party later today.

Getting better at Smash Brothers, I've got a week before I go on a 3 month enforced hiatus. Enforced by my own decisions. "All you can choose is where".

I played a little bit of Brogue but I thik I've truly got bored of it. Games are like that, they lose their charm after a while. I guess it's exciting while you're still getting good, and then you plateu and have to decide whether or not you'll keep going, whether the reward is worth the time and effort. A bit of competition can help, but it's not always enough. There is only so much time to waste on this earth, and so many fun ways to waste it.

time travel

I didn't finish this entry, got too caught up in party stuff. The party went well! I had a great night, hung out with my friends and met my Portuguese teacher in real life. Next day I went to the tennis and saw Flight Facilities. I was pretty tired so didn't write here either.

It's been hard to remember to write lately, things creep up, and I sleep in.

I sleep in

To be fair, January always feels like a mess. There are so many events, so many people back for the summer. There is only so much time to waste on this earth, and so many fun ways to waste it.

I'm hoping to pick up the sleep schedule a little this week, right before I go. I'll need my wits about me.

Today I'm doing a practice pack, seeing what I'm missing and seeing if I forget anything. First time in my entire life that I've done one, look at me go! This should lead into clearing out the wardrobe, once I know what I've got.

Know what I've got

I was thinking about how I have a few different projects half started, sitting about on my laptop ready to finish. Exciting! Of course I always want to do something new, but I think I can suppress that.

what else?

Why do I feel so boring lately? I come to write and it's just like "Today I had a sandwhich and forgot to do my journal". Didn't I use to articulate ideas? Maybe I exhausted my points of interest, they could only stand up to so many months of sloth.

I can smell something perfumey in my room but I can't find where it is. I kept catching olfactory glimpses at weird times, like when I raise my coffee cup to my lips. I've just tried it again, I think it's the coffee reseting my palette for a second before nose blindness kicks in again. I'm hyperventilating by trying to much to smell it. I'm also having trouble breathing in my room, not sure what that's about. Not too worried though.

Notes on the tennis: Big sporting events are fun! Feels silly, milling about watching sports. I love it, might become more of a sports guy going forwards. On that note actually I do have something interesting: Good Sport Magazine. It's a proper culturally concious sports magazine, and runs really really interesting pieces about and around sports.

listening to

Jour 2 by Hildegard

questions

Look within. Within is the fountain of good, and it will ever bubble up, if you will ever dig. - Marcus Aurelius, Meditations, Book VII v59.