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limit to that allowance

2023-01-25

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I finally slept well, or well enough, and managed to cleave around about 8 hours out.

I only woke up once, gripped with heart palpitations, panic that I've ruined and mangled my travel plans so entirely that I can't even board the plane.

As bad as that was, the rest of the sleep was so serene that it's a net positive.

how are we feeling

I felt emotionally pretty bad this morning. The usual self-deprecating internal monologue:

and a new one too

This last one is spurred on by a job I'm pursuing, with a client from my old Job. I'll talk about it later in this entry.

After the initial bout of unhelpful thoughts passed it left me with a more helpful feeling:

My ‛break’ is ending. Whatever came out of it, good and bad, is now going to be seen from a distance.

I probably already called it in November sometime, but December rolled on in and all hope of concentration flew out the window.

the job

It's a "conversion rate optimisation" dev role. Conversion rate is, I guess, the e-commerce equivalent to closing the deal.

The pros are:

The cons are

I feel weird about work, I feel like I should be looking for solely "ethical" roles. Is that just a vanity label? What does it mean to do an ethical role? Is it even possible? I wouldn't look down on anyone for doing a job to pay the bills, but I also think there's a limit to that allowance.

what else

listening to

Rekids - Mona Yim | HÖR - Jun 27 / 2022

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