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2023-01-03

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Wrote a big list, did very little of it. I had "Book internal argentina flights" written down, and estimated it would take around 40minutes. It ended up taking me hours, calculating bus times, doing exchange rates, wrestling with payment options, wanting to spend less, calculating difference in prices.

I ended up spending ~60 more that I expected, but that was in order to reduce the amount of different places I would have to stop. I'll land in Buenos Aires after 36 hours of travel, then I'll have 2 nights to rest before an early morning flight to Bariloche. It stressed me out no end - I have such a low tolerance for complexity and I find flight websites so confusing to use.

I've been reading this "Problem Solving 101" book produced by a business consultant for kids. As unpleasant as it is to read it does have some good externalisation techniques for breaking down larger goals and problems.

I was going to write a short description for each one but decided I don't care enough and don't know them well enough at this point. Will take some notes, maybe in a later diary entry. The point is that it's useful to have these kind of systems to help with decision making, and I want to learn more of them.

golang

I did have a go at starting the poetry extension for goldmark, it's going slow because I don't really understand how the pieces all go together at this point. I still don't know enough golang to really code well or understand fully how to structure a program. I think I need to finish a full course, more grist for the list.

a lovely blog post about blog posts

every word when you blog, no matter how throwaway, is a beautiful ode and capsule to the life you live. it's magical that what once was private and precious can be shared intimately and still be precious. i love it when i read viscerally raw and honest things about this world, even if naive or childish — i love documented encounters of struggle, introspection, renewal, mundane, feelings. writing about the small to large a casual blog entry is as important as the text in a novel that is, when i see someone articulate, even in passing, a 'naive' feeling or a thought i had when going through life it feels far less lonely. sometimes i write and lament that no one has ever felt this way and realize that this is so far from the truth, that there are others who appreciate my line of thinking and want to feel it out with me. knowing how you felt and judged a moment is going to be harder and harder the farther you've departed from it, so blog and stay a while - Reasons to Blog by Chia.

I'm struggling, still, with distraction

It's all the time, always something to pull my attention and energy away. I'm also feeling weirdly bitter these last couple of mornings - resentful feelings rise up against various friends for different slights. I'm not sure what's prompted it, all I can think of is broken sleep - I'll continue striving for my no-screen evenings and see what I can do to get my sleep hygiene a little better.

bullet points before I post this

I have lots more I want to write, but I might make a stand alone post for it - a new year reso kind of thing. Here though, a quick list of things I'd like to add to this blog:

listening to

Clouds - The Vernon Spring

questions