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Flicker, fever, fill the form

2022-09-23

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Yesterday I didn't do a great deal of anything, but I did go bouldering. I cleaned my room too, and put my washing on.

Went to Sams for some birthday drinks and bought Fernet for the event. I didn't realise how strong the drinks were, got fairly boozed. Had a lovely night, got to practice a little portuguese with his Brazilian friend and then later I practiced a lot of spanish.

did go bouldering

My fitness has fallen off a bit, I struggled to do the yellow climb consistently. It was good to be there though, very quiet. I felt close to hurting my finger, I need to find ways to stop that happening. It's annoying. I've been thinking more about my frustrations with nebulous knowledge, and how maybe I could apply the Feynman study method to literally anything, up to and including how finger joints work. Look at this nonsense:

a diagram of the joints and pulleys in a finger

Mucking about

I had a poke around Penpot, it looks really interesting. With figma being bought out by Adobe it would be good to make a change. Ronin is such a cool little tool, I'd love some more design tools that were script forward - maybe a new project idea? Lord knows I love to try building tools for comics instead of making actual comics.

Mike

Extremely pleased after today, I managed to catch up with my old good friend Mike and his wife Nicole. He's one of the most friendly, caring guys I've ever met and he always makes me feel appreciated and good about my life. We went to an arcade in docklands, I had a blast. This is what it's all about. The recent episode of Raisin Man Arena was pretty good, they talked about doing things in person, the connection between people and a scene. The importance of it. How at the end of the day that's all we have. I am lucky to have so many good friends in my life, and it fills my heart to have these relationships mature over time.

what else

I remember hanging out with Alex and enjoying seeing all the tabs he had open, here's some of mine at the moment:

the entire lyrics to Simulation Swarm by Big Thief

This song blows me away. The rhyming and rythm of the language and the mysticism of lyrics are the perfect mix for my sensitivities. I get emotional reading it, it wells up within me.

I tried to tell you
I didn't know how to stay
You believe she can see through
Cutting at the silent clay
A relief, beckon deep blue
Fettered in the magnet sun
Eat the gun as it feeds you
Spitting up the oxygen
Once again
Once again

Once again, empty horses
Gallop through the violet door
Follow red, crooked courses
Shadows on the moonlit floor
O my stars, winged creatures
Gathering in silken height
Like the last human teachers

Once again, we must bleed new
Even as the hours shake
Crystal blood like a dream true
A ripple in the wound and wake
You believe, I believe too
That you are the river of light
Who I love, that I cling to
In the belly of the empty night

From the 31st floor of the simulation swarm
With the drone of fluorescence
Flicker, fever, fill the form
With a warm gush, now I wanna touch
Like we never could before
I'd fly to you tomorrow, I'm not fighting in this war
I wanna drop my arms and take your arms
And walk you to the shore

I remember building an energy shield
In your room, like a temple
Swallows in the windless field
Very thin, with your mother
Tall as a pale green tree
Very wild, bright as winter
Rising with a prism key
And a child to deliver
Taken with the blood and vine
As the first little angel

Little Andy, soft in your newborn skin
Only one, little Andy, will you return again?
I believe we can renew
And you could be my brother
Once again, fall asleep with our backs against each other
You believe, I believe too
That you are the river of light who I love
That I sing to in the belly of the empty night

From the 31st floor of the simulation swarm
With the drone of fluorescence
Flicker, fever, fill the form
With a warm gush, now I wanna touch
Like we never could before
I'd fly to you tomorrow, I'm not fighting in this war
I wanna drop my arms and take your arms
And walk you to the shore
I'd fly to you tomorrow, I'm not fighting in this war
I wanna drop my arms and take your arms

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